Okay, so, this is my life over the last month or so.

         A few weeks back, I guess it was about a month ago, I went bowling. But there's a catch, it was with deaf people. DUM DUM DUMMMMMM... It was quite possibly one of the most fun (funnest?) things I've ever done. I went with some of the people from my ASL (American Sign Language) class and those of us that were in our class bowled together. There were alot of kids at the alley. The first one I met introduced himself to me as W-O-L-I-T-Y-W-D-F. Well thats what it looked like. I lost track of what he was fingerspelling after the "L" cause he was doing it so fast. I'm not quite that good yet so I asked him to slow down, then i read W-O-L-F-H-D-R-E-S. WOOT one more letter, go me! I asked him once again to slow down, and i learned that his name was Wolfgang, which is awesome by the way. Throughout the night I met alot of people and was able to network myself into some cool groups and activities. I recieved my own "namesign." A name sign is a sign that represents your name, for example, mine is the "M" sign tracing a big smile on your face. The lady, Ioda, that gave me the sign said it was because of my beautiful smile. I'm not sure if i agree with her, but it's flattering.

         A week or so passed and i went out to NM (New Mexico) to visit my mom and brothers. I had alot of fun. Mostly I played Pokemon and Yugioh with my bros and cousins... >.< I know, I'm a geek, but not a nerd! WE visited my Grandpa Gurule (Guhr-lay) for his birthday and ate tacos, real ones >.<. We played flashlight tag, which was really fun, but was cut short, cause we had to go home. I hadn't played that in years, now I remember why I used to >.< I was able to join in on my brothers' Karate class. Now, being a student of Tae Kwon Do, naturally I had the traing that was completely unnecessary in order to keep up, but I got the chance to sparr my brother Kyle, and that was fun. They are all getting so big, well except for Corey, he's stilla shorty, but Kyle is almost at my chin. Before I got on the plane, I got a phone call while I was checking in. It was Allstate so i let it go to voicemail and i checked it once i got to Albuquerque. come to find out that two weeks prior my car insuranbce was cancelled due to lack of payment of $10.00 -_- needless to say, I was less than pleased. The insurance agent didnt put down on my address that I lived in Apt. 32 therefore the bill was returned to sender, and I never got it, so I never paid it. So, in exchange for $550.00 I was able to get it reinstated. We also went to this awesome/horrible car/comic shop, meaning the cards were awesome, but the comics sucked >.<. We were there for hours just playing yugioh and pokemon until we were pushed out of the door by my uncle.The night before I left was really hard. I was saying good bye to my bros and Kyle started crying, which made me start up. Now I'm not one to cry due to emotions, pain yes, but not sadness, but when I saw Kyle breakdown, I lost it. I miss them terribly, but on the bright side, the plane ride home was enjoyable -_-.

         So apart from basically being broke again, and missing my brothers, I'm doing alright. I'm failing school, but waht else is new? i did that all through public school, might as well do it here. It's that damn homework, for some reason, and this has been true my whole life, I just can't bring myself to do homework, it's always been just too stupid for me to actually give a crap about. During class I'm an excellent student, and I can sign really well for my class level, but it's that damn homework >.<.

         Anyway, I'm jonesin' for a DnD game, any takers?

         'Til next tme!!!!

     So... Jake and I got an apartment, $1,004/month before utilities. I'm getting really scared that I'm getting in over my head. I know that Jake can afford it, I mean duh, of course he can, but me...? I'm getting really scared here guys. I started school again (GO ME!!), and it seems like it's going to be really fun and educational, but I'm not sure if I can afford it anymore.

     Roughly estimated, I'm not gonna be able to save any money for the next year, and if I'm lucky, I might just break even. I only bring in like one grand a month, after taxes. With my car insurance being $360/month and cable and electric and gas and rent and gas and food and OMG!!!!!!! I am so scared guys... I don't know what I'm gonna do.

     It's been a long time since I've wanted to just sit in a corner and cry, but I know that won't help anything (though it sounds like a good idea at the moment). Seriously guys, I hope i can make it through this, I hope I made the right decision...

So, as some of you may know, which I think is only one of you, I just happen to have a little crush on someone, no, not you :Þ, but I don't know what to do about it. I'm not really a shy person, and I have no problem with asking a girl out. Yes, yes it is a girl, shut up all of you. So, I figured I would ask you guys, 'cause I have no idea what to do...  So, I might as well start at the beginning and I apologize if the order of events is out-of-order... >.<

     Okay, there's this girl at work named Dillon, not the girl I mentioned beforehand, and we started hanging out at work and such and became pretty good acquaintances. One day she asked me to take her to her schools Homecoming Dance (<----- not sure if that's supposed to be capitalized or not, so I did it anyway). I happily accepted and took her. Now, I was still dating Heather at this point and since I knew she would say no and I really didn't care what she thought at this point in our relationship anyway, I didn't tell her and just went.

     So, when I got there, I found out that I was not only taking Dillon to the dance, but about 7 other girls as well. I had a harem, joy for me -_-'. Apparently, they weren't going to do the "date" thing for this, but Dillon did it anyway. So after I was introduced to everyone we went along happily into the school. A Catholic High School. I was extremely afraid that I was gonna burst into flames the moment I walked through the doors. So anyway, I'm not much of a dancer, it's not that I'm no good, its that I don't know how, plus I don't find it much fun. So, I'm the "designated picture taker" so I stay on the side and take their pictures while they dance and have fun and what not. At some point one of the girls dropped the camera and the screen took only purple pictures... it was weird... >.<, so I stood on the side and tried to fix it, which didn't work, by the way, then one of the girls came over and talked to me.

     She was trying to convince me to come dance with them, so I did. Throughout the rest of the night I danced and what not and had a good time, hoodathawt? At some point in the night, I was talking to Dillon and I told her that I really liked Katie, the girl who convinced me to dance. But the problem was, as I stated before, I was still dating Heather at the time, so no luck for me. Anyway, night ends and I go home, happy with the amount of totally unintentional butt touches in the huge mob of, mostly, girls. The next day, at work, I was talking to Dillon and she expressed how Katie, liked me as well.

     A few weeks later I had broken up with Heather, not because of Katie, it was already planned, and a littlke while later I talked to Dillon again, as we normally do, about Katie. I told her I was still interested in Katie and was wondering if she would help me out in getting in touch with her, 'cause you know, it's rude for a guy to call a girl who did not give him her number. Well at least i think it's creepy and pretty much rude. >.<. So, I asked her to ask her about me and she said she would and would let me know. About a week went by, and she didn't tell me anything, and now its been quite a long time, and still havn't heard anything. So, now I don't know what to do. Do I try again, and pester Dillon, or do I try to find her via Myspace/FB/Inet, or what?

     OR should I just not worry about it and stop being so stalker/obsessed about this girl. I dunno...